I’m so not good at posting on the actual correct day!!
Songs for a soundtrack…I’m going to make notes of what times in my life they would cover so it’s easier for me to pick out songs. 
“Freefallin’” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
This is the first song I ever remember hearing as a child so it’s only appropriate that it would come first. The only flaw is that it actually came out the year after I was born, but who’s counting?
“Fireworks” by The Animal Collective
Good memories from the past couple of years. This is one of those songs that I get absorbed into.
“Summertime Rolls” by Jane’s Addiction
My favorite song for the summer…definitely reminiscent of summer of 2009.
“She Talks to Angels” by The Black Crowes
I picked this song because it relates to my addictions.
“Souled Out!” by Conor Oberst and the Mystic Valley Band
A song for fun moments. Also reminiscent of 2009.
“An Attempt to Tip the Scales” by Bright Eyes
About all of the things I’ve thrown myself into prematurely, or how I feel my youth was lost in the mess of details related to being a “grown up” and my need to ‘have my shit together’.
“Devil in the Details” by Bright Eyes
I tried not to pick all Bright Eyes songs! I swear. This song is dark and definitely something that would be relative to my struggle with anxiety, bipolar disorder and probably most of all- cutting.
“You can’t always get what you want” by The Rolling Stones
You can’t have a soundtrack without the Rolling Stones! I have to remind myself of the chorus almost daily.
“Tiny Vessels” by Death Cab for Cutie
The way I’ve lived my adult life- never letting anyone in and basically using men. I’m not proud of it but the chorus is “You are beautiful, but you don’t mean a thing to me.”. Says it all. It bothers me that I’ve probably hurt a lot of people.
“Bad Habit” by The Dresden Dolls
It’s about Amanda Palmer’s nail biting. It relates to a lot of my bad habits as well, both current and past.
“American Girl” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
About a girl determined to make it…”She couldn’t help thinkin’ that there was a little more to life somewhere else”. Certainly a song for growing up.
“My Stupid Mouth” by John Mayer
About many social interactions of mine. Mostly dates. I’m awkward!
“Roses” by Outkast
I just love this song. Best memory- dancing to it with about 20 people in a circle at my dad’s wedding this past September.
“Wish You Were Here” by Pink Floyd
I have a tattoo I based off of this song. It keeps me grounded- knowing that wherever I go, there I am. It also for some reason reminds me of my grandfather. It’s probably because it feels beachy. The line “Did you exchange a walk-on part in a war for a lead role in a cage?” really explains my feelings on my choices- creativity/arts vs. stability/human services.
“Time to Pretend” by MGMT
Daydreams! My friend Whitney and I used to talk about how we were the two people in the song. I’ll turn to her sometimes and say “Let’s make some music, make some money, find some models for wives”. I think we had a serious conversation once about which of us would “man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars” and who would “move to Paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars”.
“Highly Suspicious” by My Morning Jacket
This song is for anxiety! It reminds me of the last time I drank in a bar (Oct2) and I was darting under tables because I thought someone was after me. I remember telling my friend who was a bartender there that if the cops came, he saw nothing! I still can’t remember what I thought I had done. Hmm.
“The Becoming” by Nine Inch Nails
Describes my depression and the handful of psychotic episodes I’ve had related to it.
“Right Where It Belongs” by Nine Inch Nails
A definite thought provoking song. I was lucky enough to witness it live.
“Scar Tissue” by The Red Hot Chili Peppers
The loneliness of being the equivalent of a womanizer (a manizer? What am I?) I’ve let people get close and then just sabotaged it.
“Snow” by The Red Hot Chili Peppers
My alcoholism song. Yep.
“Portions for Foxes” by Rilo Kiley
My tendency to go back to my ex’s when I was young, and how I feel about myself sometimes- “I’m bad news”. And also- people I sleep with and have no intentions of entering into anything serious with them: “And the touching leads to sex…and then there is no mystery left.”
“Admit It!” by Say Anything
My general feelings on people my age. Not gonna lie.
“Sorry dudes, my bad” by Say Anything
About me needing to reach out more! Realizing that your friends are amazing and supportive is an eye-opener.
“Thank You Too!” by My Morning Jacket
I want to meet a lover like this.
“Lover I don’t have to love” by Bright Eyes
Love’s an excuse to get hurt, so sleep around! haha. I’m growing up and changing my ways but this song definitely needs to be in here.
“Librarian” by My Morning Jacket
Simply because I tend to look like a sexy librarian. I refuse to get contacts because I love my sexy plastic frame glasses.
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I know that was more than 15. I’d like to do this someday with specific artists- easily could be done with Bright Eyes! You can probably tell who my favorite bands are. I’m sure I could easily expand on this! It’s something I’ll probably blog about more. I love music- it’s my blood.
